“Lean on Me as You face the circumstances of this WEEK, because I will never leave You or forsake You. ” 💜 And thank God this is the start of a NEW one! Last week was a rough one … It started out pretty minor on Sunday having to cancel my lost debit card, (so NOT a big deal …) until Monday when I lost the only mailbox key (still minimal irritation because well lets face it – that can’t touch the kind of tough days that I have had). Sprinkle in some other progressively more difficult situations that broke my heart a little & I started to see a pattern: In proper Mandy form I thought to myself: “hmm, that’s all you got??” because I’m gonna be all the way real and tell you that I’ve been convinced for a long time that its often spiritual in nature: NOT engaging. Nope, NOT today Satan.
So Wednesday rolls around and after a slammed day full of appointments and such I manage to gather up most of the fam to head to church. We are running a lil’ late, but not to awful bad so I decided to jump on the freeway to hopefully avoid getting stuck at all the lights and get there a little faster. Almost there .. coming around the sharp curve from 270S to 70E I can suddenly hear someone’s tires screeching – closer, closer, closer – this is WAY too familiar, panic rising in my chest because I remember this; just last time it came from in front of me instead – and you guessed it; the world moves in sloooooooooow motion and BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAM!! The kid behind me was discovering how fast his Mustang could take that curb & lost control and clips my passenger side rear. YUP, me and my already traumatized family lose control also and slam into the concrete barrier .. (again). I won’t even go into the things that happened in my head in those seconds. TRIGGER much? Not to mention the stuff I KNOW is happening in my baby girl’s head. Are you kidding me right now?
My first initial thought when I started writing was maybe I should write a book about all of the times in the last 5 years that have been just absurdly, hard and the obscene amount of times that I have actually thought “this is my life and it is THE VERY DEFINITION of stupid!” Utterly ridiculous & painful in every single way. All of the times that I have wanted to succumb to a dark hole, to complain, scream, cry, put my hands on someone even …… for thinking they are having an “awful day because they spilled coffee on their shirt & had a low tire while running late for work. ” But, as I always say comparison IS the thief of Joy! That, my friends is some real deal truth! 😂
But JESUS. Every time I feel like I just might not survive it – the Holy Spirit rises up in me like fire & starts to burn away the frustrated, angry, flesh that is Me without Him & I remember: JESUS. The Way to Peace, the ONLY way. ☮️ I remember the Word that is burned into my heart and mind – the promises that He has given me (& YOU!) Somehow my car came to a stop instead of careening over the edge into oncoming traffic – although the kid who hit us was actually facing the OPPOSITE direction on the freeway, on a sharp curve we were ALL ok! Instead of being trapped inside the car this time while my babies screamed for me terrified I was actually able to get out of the car and comfort and hold them. Somehow, someway – miracles unseen by the physical eye He raises what I thought had to be all the way bad (ash). He works it for my good and there I stand, (its just necessary to put some emphasis on that word) wondering what in the world happened that such an awful situation turned somehow beautiful?
Props to Pastor Steven Furtick & Pastor Tim Oldfield for always going where the Spirit leads – I started my week on Monday with Elevation’s latest sermon “It had to happen” (having NO idea how insanely bad I would need every word) & ended it with a powerful Word from my home church at Potter’s House COG – Columbus. (I will add the link when it’s available). My car is totaled, we have some minor aches and pains but guess what?!?! I’m just gonna Shake, Shake, Shake.